Low serotonin in the house tonight,
Everything – it’s making me cry!
Feels like I’m gonna lose my mind
Norepinephrine makes me – shaky!
(Sung to the tune of “Party Rock Anthem” by LMFAO. Do not take that as an endorsement).
I’m slightly emotionally unstable today. That’s okay; it’s just part of the process. The chemicals have to re-balance themselves and the synapses have to learn new patterns. Literally everything is making me cry.
Couldn’t make it to work today because of insomnia and dizziness – cried.
Ate some turkey bacon for breakfast – cried.
Played with Blue (the wiener dog) – cried.
Snuggled with Benny (the fat Pom-Chi) – cried.
Bible study – cried.
Iced mocha made with almond milk – cried.
Took a shower – cried.
Read a few chapters of The Sentinels of Andersonville – cried.
Thought about painting my nails – cried.
Made the bed – cried.
And there are tears in the corners of my eyes just typing all that out!
This is tough for a woman who’s never been particularly expressive with her emotions. I’ve always had them. They just don’t usually cause me to become a dripping mess. I know I’ll feel even-keeled once more when this process is complete. It’s comforting to be aware of what’s happening inside my brain and know that it doesn’t have to color my life forever.
That perspective? Comes entirely from God. It’s only be two-and-a-half weeks, but the ways in which He has encouraged and sustained me leave me in awe. I have no doubt whatsoever that He will continue to guide me, even carry me, through this maze.
He’ll carry you, too. All you have to do is ask.
To read all the posts in The Detox Diaries series, go here.