31 Days of Brave: Done

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Gentle Reader,

God clearly orchestrates some moments in our lives, right down to the last detail, and those moments always reveal something important.

Yesterday, out of nowhere, an extremely bad attitude flared up in me. You know the kind. I don’t want to do this. I don’t want to be here. It’s not fair. Inwardly I was throwing a gigantic tantrum, complete with screaming and foot-stomping. Chalk it up to a long few days or the knowledge that a week’s vacation was just around the corner if you want, but it was ugly. I might as well have been sitting there with my lower lip jutted out and my arms across my chest.

That attitude vaporized a couple of hours later. I can’t give you any details, but it became very clear to me that, if I had gotten my way, I would not have noticed something that I very much needed to notice. I would not have received the check on my heart, the huge flashing stop-sign, that I desperately needed to receive.

And I would not have learned that bravery sometimes says, “I’m done.”

There are some things in life that are too twisted for color TV, as Miss Ouiser says in Steel Magnolias. There are some things that just can’t be figured out. That’s a hard thing to accept for someone like me, whose favorite question has always been, “Why?”

But sometimes you just have to let go. You just can’t pursue it anymore.

My journey to faith. (15)

  For all of the posts in the 31 Days: Brave series, go here.

31 Days of Brave: Tune

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Gentle Reader,

God of our life,
There are days when the burdens we carry
chafe our shoulders and weigh us down;
When the road seems dreary and endless,
the skies gray and threatening;
When our lives have no music in them,
and our hearts are lonely, and our souls have lost their courage.
Flood the path with light,
turn our eyes to where the skies are full of promise;
Tune our hearts to brave music; give us the sense
of comradeship with heroes and saints of every age;
And so quicken our spirits that we may be able
to encourage the souls of all who journey with us
on the road of life, to your honor and glory. – Augustine

 

My journey to faith. (15)

  For all of the posts in the 31 Days: Brave series, go here.

31 Days of Brave: Woman

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Gentle Reader,

I’ve come down with a head cold, thanks to the generosity of my husband. So my brain’s a bit too fuzzy to post anything substantial today. Instead, I offer you this thought from Sarah Bessey, a thought that calls women to brave living:

For the sake of the Gospel, women must speak – and teach and minister and prophesy, too. For the sake of the Gospel, a woman must be free to walk in her God-breathed self in whatever vocation and season and place of life.

My journey to faith. (15)

  For all of the posts in the 31 Days: Brave series, go here.