P119C – Day 81

Gentle Reader,

Today’s Verse:

“My soul faints for Your salvation,
But I hope in Your word.”

- Psalm 119:81

Point to Ponder:

I’ve been away from my computer for five days now. My plan when I logged on today was to post verses 81-85 and comment upon them. When I saw verse 81, however, I knew I had to post it alone.

Do you know what it means for your soul to faint? I think I do. As I sit here battling the nausea that comes from changes in my medications, I ache for God to reach down and heal me. I feel as though I’m on the absolute edge of what I can handle. It would be very easy to fly to pieces. This pill at this hour, this pill at that hour. This creme here, that creme there. Can’t eat, can’t stand, sleep to much.

When will this end?

My soul faints for His salvation. I long for God to appear this very minute and put the suffering of this old world to an end. I long for a new place, a new body and a new level of relationship with Him. The minute passes with no sign of His return on the clouds – still I hope in His Word. He will come. He will make all things new and batter. Until then, I trust that He is here even now and has a purpose beyond what I can understand in all of this. I believe that I am never forsaken.

Hope revives those who faint.

Grace and peace to you,